how we battle sin

a must see! and please don't let the music and dancing throw you. it's the message that makes me keep watching it. (and i happen to like the song to but we won't go there).

Godtube

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Who is this man?

Who is this man that kicks us when we are down? Where does he come from, and how does he know we have just fallen. Unless? Is he also the man who tripped us up in the first place? That way he can watch as we stumble and time it out just right. How can he time it out with such perfection? Who is this man that will not seem to ever let up? Day after day kicking and kicking. Does he ever tire of all this toil? Does his foot ever hurt after such long bouts of thrashing and stomping? Who is this man that knows the right way to kick? Where did he learn this talent of such precisely placed pummeling’s? Maybe it’s instinctive. Who is this man who kicks us when we are down? Will he win? Or will the man who picks us back up again win? And who is this man who picks us back up again? Where does the man come from? Is he always there waiting for the dust to settle so he can reach down and scoop us up? Who is this man who knows when you are hurt, who knows when you have taken your final blow? This man who thinks not of himself, but of the well being of battered souls. Does he get tired of reaching down and lifting us up? Or does he tire of hearing the one he lifts complain and curse concerning the beating he just took? What of his feelings? Does he not desire well wishing for good deeds done? Will he ever get them? Who is this man and who is the other, one in the same or one in another?

down for the count!

i have not updated my blog, not out of laziness like normal. i just got home from park ridge hospital. i was admitted there Monday morning. last Friday as i was leaving work my ears where just a bit tender and achy. by the next morning i knew i was getting at least one ear infection and maybe two, off to the dr. i go. he tells me "you have two outer ear infections" oh boy super just in time for the holiday weekend right! by that night i knew i was in for it, both ears where draining and this nasty yellow stuff was running down both sides of my neck. it was sic! but as sic as it was it was better then when i woke up in the middle of the night both ears 100% plugged nothing coming out anymore and pressure you would not believe. by Sunday a.m. i was a mess, the left side of my face was all puffed up, my ear looked like i had been a wrestler my whole life (cauliflower ear i think they call it) well it looked like one any way. the pain was unreal, i have had these in the past and they are always bad but this was not like anything i ever had before. there was no way to stop it for any amount of time. but other then the pain the deafness has been the worst part, i knew something was wrong when i went to take a shower and i could not hear it at all. it's a strange thing you feel very weak, almost helpless with out your hearing. i got scared cuz i thought i was going deaf forever, but i stayed home one more night of utter agony. Monday i was going to the hospital. at this point i had been taking all the meds my doc gave me sense Saturday a.m. and it has gotten worse and worse like i never took a thing. off to the e.r. i stumble, driving around like a drunk im shocked i did not get a dwi on the way. but i made it, they get me in not to long, and get a cat scan to see whats going on. the infection had gone from the outer ear (where it was on Saturday) to the inner and the boney part with the fancy name, and out of the ear to the area around it, down into the jaw and was threating to enter into my bones. the guy came back and goes hey dave don't plan on going anywhere for some time. i thinking oh boy, what does that mean? are they going to start operating on me or what? so anyway, no cutting. just a whole lot of bags of antibiotics and tubes to open the ear canals to get drops in and all that fun stuff, and three days later im home and as deaf as can be. yup still deaf, still wanting to hear anything other then the ocean and my own heart beat. not fun things when your trying to sleep by the way. but, im ok. funny thing how i was so out of it but my dad came up from p.a. to see me and i swear from the second he walked into my room and woke me up i snapped out of it and have been getting better ever sense. strange how Gods timing is.